I am told that love is blind. That love has no price and it knows no pride. That love knows no boundaries. As for me, I believe that love is like a drug. I think I am a victim to that. Once you are hooked that’s it. It takes over and it consumes every bit of you. Taking over your heart, mind and in the end, your soul is snatched by love. We call it soul ties. I may be growing to be an addict once more.
It’s late night and I am here stranded because my thoughts are clouding my mind, I can’t get sleep. The short conversation we had at the coffee shop has been replaying in my mind. But what I can’t seem to get over is your smile and the attraction that was present. I never felt that zing ever since my last lover who we ended in painful tears. Something told me that I am entitled to you. I thought I had given up on love but since first sight I can’t get over you. The few meet ups we have had, have me yearning for more time.
You told me how you were once tragically hurt. How you were left broken, your heart crashed, your conscience in disbelief from the betrayal. You felt manipulated and the pain and rage consumed you. Now, you are insecure and cautious about who you let in and trust. I can feel the pensive sadness within. You built a wall to protect your inner self and allow healing. One thing you set clearly was that you despise conflictions in love. You want presence and value honesty. You remind me a lot of Jhene Aiko, how she learnt to grow through tragedy to finally finding solace. Yes, we both have insecurities.
I will tell you about me…
I have been through too much and lost too much, when my feelings exceed me, my ego recedes me. Through pain I sort healing and that got me to soul searching. I learnt to forgive my past mistakes and grow with patience. I have so much love to give with the peace within me. One promise I made to myself is, that the next soul I love, I will love to the fullest. I am done with all the fake impressions and love that people are giving out here. I want to be the realest person in your life. I want to give you this piece of me, even though part of me loves and part of me hates.
You called yourself a special one and a wild one too. Sort of a spicy soul and guess I need a little sweetness in my life. That you are crazy in the good way. Well, I want you to teach me how to control it and to own it. Teach me how you want to be loved and I will do all it takes to make you happy. I want to take care of you and love you to the fullest how you have always desired. You raise me I raise you. I want to win your love and make our love fantasy true. I want to sing with you and laugh with you and make memories for a lifetime. I want to have crazy moments with you, let’s pour out our souls and spill dirty secrets and our pretty little fears while tuning to some Sauti Sol oldies. One thing I know about love is that it requires patience. Love is patience. With you, I am willing to take my time and learn every step and grant all the wishes you desire. I want to stare into your beautiful eyes and see our future together. I feel destiny has given us this opportunity to express the love we both desire to give. Guess it’s true that lámore trova una via, that love finds a way.
So, what does it take to win your love? One thing about me is that I am not giving up. I wanna get you that fendi and cloth you in that fenty. And still be the titled pedi wako wa mapenzi. Darling, you are the Queen I have been searching for and all I ask is, can I be your King?
We all have a heaven clock but let’s give a shot one last time.
Written by: Guncho